||[Jan. 12th, 2008|12:57 am]
|||||nonee we're not tryin to wake his mommy! hehe silly||]|
I must say that its quite humorous and overwhelmingly entertaining to sign back into this and read about how and what I was doing. Its insaine how different my day to day routine has changed, and as a result how altered my personality is.
Well incase anybody still reads, but mostly for my own documentation I guess a brief summary is in order....
I basically turned into a total girl, got a boyfriend ended up getting kicked out of the house, played wifey/house with my man and recently got back to my parents house, back on my feet. Meanwhile I have to admit I was pretty hyped up on meth, addicted, smoking it everyday to escape from the shit I got myself into. I ended up breaking up with the boy, but about a month before I had started getting high with this guy my best friend/gay guy I was smoking with daily had started to bring around. Anyways inevitably I ended up falling for him and we hooked up and that helped me get over my ex. This new boy somehow affected me so much, I still truly believe he is a angel sent to me from my mother[she died when I was ten, but I was adopted at birth]. Anyways I got sober, he somehow inspired me, god he's a truly gorgeous boy inside and damn he's fine haha. So basically he is my best friend now, I'm technically back together with my ex...but no title heh. I ado admit I'd drop it all with my ex if I could have the new boy so I'm still kinda stuck in the sense that I don't want to be alone, even though I know where my heart lays now lol. Anyways, on a more stable note, I got my diploma in the beginning of november, and turned 18 at the end lol. I'm starting culinary school 'Le Cordon Bleu' on feb 19 and I'm stoked, dads a bit bummed only cause I won't be receiving more than a associates degree and he's oldschool to the point where he believes nobody is anybody without a degree.
Anyways I actually happen to be with the new boy at his house on his bed and I just realized I'd rather be talking to him or well minus the talking hehe
Maybe ill keep on this, kinda relaxing, outlet status haha